Tuesday, March 04, 2008

One Extreme Or The Other

It's been a long time, but I'm back. I stopped working last year and decided to get a different job. I wanted to make my man happier by stopping "fucking people for money" as he put it.
I tried massage therapy, stripping in a club and clerical work. None of them came up to scratch financially. I was faced with a tough decision (my man found it tough too), but I decided to work for another 5 years or so and then have enough money for investment and retirement.

I guess you'll want to hear what I've been up to lately......

"So are you Dom or Sub?" this guy asked me today. It's now about the fourth time I've seen him and he always asks the same questions. "Neither really, I just like to be desired and fucked" I said, and because I was starting to get irritated with him I asked "So why do you like to fit people into one box or another?". He wasn't offended, he just said that it makes it easier for him to relate and react to people. I said that I'm just me and he should react to me as he sees me. I asked him how he sees me, he didn't know. Oh for goodness sake!....I find it so tiring when they want me to play a role without direction!

Sometimes a director does come along and it's good. One guy a few weeks ago had a schoolgirl fantasy. When he arrived (after describing exactly what he wanted me to wear) he sat down and described the whole scenario; what we would both say and do, how the dialogue and interaction would take place, what the outcome would be and how we would arrive there. I was to be the sixth former who had been caught smoking behind the bike sheds, I had been sent to (his) the Headmaster's office to be dealt with. I would deny it at first and receive punishment (gentle spanking across the palms then on the bottom with a plastic bendy ruler that he had thoughtfully brought with him) until I agreed to tell the truth. Eventually I would be asked to give him a blow job to avoid further punishment and of course I would oblige.
We did the whole thing and it was great. At the start, once he had described the scenario to me I went out of the room and came back in again in character. We both stayed in character until he came and then it was like someone said "CUT" and we both came out of character.
Now that's my idea of role-play.

This guy today... "Oh I think maybe you're slightly Sub. Have you ever done anything Dom or Sub? What happened the last time? What friends have you got that wear leather?" .... and on and on, ...whilst he's wanking of course, ...and I'm squeezing his nipples. Sometimes he forces my head down to bite or lick his nipples (yuck - hairy!), but last time it gave me a strained neck so I wont let him force me now.
I noticed today that he has grey body hair on his left side and dark hair on his right side. I think it's a manifestation of his desire to make all things either one extreme or the other.